Felicia, 16
My big day, 26th April.
Life has been tough for me.
I learn from every mistakes I've made.

After school. Headed to Chambers.
& Again. Same thing.
Actually we're meeting. But in the end never.

Everyday, he would tell me that he's meeting me the next day.
But, the next day. We will never meet also.
I'm used to it. Getting tired of waiting for you soon.

I've no mood to be in Chambers today.
Because of Baby.
Alright. He said that he will be meeting me up today.
But in the end. He woke up at 4plus.
He asked me what time I'm going back home.
I told him around 7.
& He said. 'Then don't meet le la.'

He says he wants to meet me long.
& Not for awhile.
I was like, so damn pissed can?
Because. He knows I can't go back home too late.
Especially, In school uniform. & On a school day.
If he wants to meet me longer. He can wake up earlier right?
& He knows I can't go back home too late.
He purposely say he wants to meet me till latelate.
& He know, I confirm cannot one.
Then in the end, don't need meet liaos loh?

Whatever lah. )':
Then. At night.
Tell me he needs time again.
I got even pissed off then.
Because. Everyday he sleep. & Once he wake up, already quite late.
& He wake up, jiu go to funland & etc.
He only had time to have fun.
Will he have time to think & cool down & everything? No right.

This is what made me felt so what the fork.
Seriously. If this carries on. I really don't know.
I really don't know, If. I still can tolerate waiting for you like this.

I know. Your feelings for me might have faded.
But. By then. If you don't have feelings for me anymore.
You'll ask me for a breakup for sure, isnt it?
Just let things go naturally bahs.
I've no strength to care about so much anymore also.

I'm using all of my strength.
To save & to hold on to this relationship tightly.
But somehow someday, I'll still run out of breath.
I hope, & I really hope. You could turn back.
& Think about our happy moments, yeah?
& I hope by then.
You'll be back like last time?

I don't want our present.
The present which we have quarrels everyday.
& Not meeting each other for a period of time & all those.

I'll soon be mad, seriously.