Felicia, 16
My big day, 26th April.
Life has been tough for me.
I learn from every mistakes I've made.

Helloooh. My mood's not really stable for today, as I'm worried sick for my own grades. Few of the papers was given back, and it looks like it's really BAD. I guess I really din't put in enough effort. I think I'm gonna retain, tmd. I won't give myself high hopes that I'll be promoted up to sec3, because if I were t retain, I'll really fall hard. I'm already falling now. There's people who score well, but they're still tearing. Idknow what's the reason. If I were to score such good grades, I'll be not in this state now. I feel lost. There's only ONE more paper left, to decide where I shall b next year; and that's literature. I know myself, I won't do well for Literature too. I din't put in my efforts. Even Maths, the subject which I really put in my heart to try to study, I failed. You would think I'm sucha failure wouldn't you? I am, yes, that's how I think of myself now. I only know how to play hard, until I get my grades, then I'll come to my senses. I am really feeling so down now, I feel sorry for people who taught me, who really tried to help. Like Lynn twinny, Saikang and Elaine. Sorry, I made all your efforts go down the drain. Of course, the most I feel sorry for is Daddy. I'm an utter disappointment. Daddy dotes on me so much normally, he tries very hard to get things that I want and he always try very hard to fulfil my needs. I've been causing him troubles, causing quarrels between him and mummy. Mummy will give bad attitude towards Daddy if it's late and I'm still not back home. And now I understand why Daddy will shout at me when he calls me sometimes. I've yet to realise until Daddy told me everything that day. I felt sorry, but I do not know how to express it, physically. Well, enough of all those rants. It won't do much help to my mood also.

English : 41.5/80
Mathematics : 18/100
Science : 37/100
Geography : Not sure, but it shouldb 15/100.
Chinese Paper1 : 43/70
Chinese Paper2 : 42/60

I feel so ashamed. And I'm very guilty. Daddy say he's bring me to shop for my shorts. I wonder how he'll react when he knows about my results .. Anyway, Bibi sent me home today. (L) Off,barbye.