Felicia, 16
My big day, 26th April.
Life has been tough for me.
I learn from every mistakes I've made.

Don't know how should I apologise to you,

Happy Valentine's Day people. I guess loving couples are all on the street, with smiles widely. Celebrating this day, 14th of Feb. I'm suppose to have this day celebrated with my love, too. However, it's kind of my fate or something.. Had bad stomachache yesterday, out of sudden. Already felt the pain when baby walk me to my doorstep around 9plus. Reach home and I immediately tell Bro's gf. Didn't knew that the pain would be so immediate, it turn worst in less than half an hour. It's kinda like bloated or something. I thought it's because I din't eat or something, and I went to have a cup of hot milo. Didn't knew it wasn't, it became worst and I vomitted. Kept having the sharp pain, and I didn't even knew what caused it. Face turned as white as a sheet of paper, lips turn as pale pink too. The pain is totally terrible and miserable. Baby was kinda worried for me, so is bro's gf and bro. Bro's gf was the one who took care of me for the whole night. I can't get to sleep at all, just close my eyes, whenever I'm getting into deep sleep, the pain comes. It continued for about a few hours, and I kept disturbing bro's gf. She can't get to sleep too, just to make sure I'm all right. Whenever I feel terrible, I ring her up and she'll come to my room immediately. She wanted to wake Daddy up, but I didn't want Daddy to worry and I still wanna celebrate Valentine the next day. Bro's gf fed me with medicine and ginger tea. And I could finally get to sleep.

Woke up at around 11plus today, felt as miserable. Feel strengthless, don't even have the strength to walk. But I still want to celebrate Valentine. I'm waiting for baby to wake up, hopefully he will. It's already 4plus in the afternoon already, and I'm still home. I'm having fever, 38.1 degrees. I'm just so unlucky, fancy having fever on Valentine's day! I'm really sorry baby, I ruin what you planned. I'll make it up to you tomorrow.. You even plan to get the bigbear that I wanted, and now I'm unable to celebrate this day with you. Deepest apologies. I regret too.

I'm feeling hot and cold, strengthless, my bones and joints are like so fragile that I could feel it would break anytime.

I'm sorry, boy; I miss you too ..