Felicia, 16
My big day, 26th April.
Life has been tough for me.
I learn from every mistakes I've made.

School makes me tired.

I don't know what I'm doing, seriously. Giving that blur look to my parents everyday when I get home. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Daddy has changed. After his birthday, he changed into another person. A person who I don't think it's the Dad that doted on me that much. Every single things he'll raise his voice. I'm really very tired of coping with my own things, seriously tired. I hope I could stop moving for a 'lil while. It's not easy for me to manage both my studies and relationships with people/family, y'see. I've been so liveless at home. I totally feel like I lost my soul. I don't feel energetic at home at all, unlike the Felicia that's in school/outside. I really feel exhausted, really. I already got tired of my life, getting reprimanded for every single thing. I know, I'm useless. Right now everyone's demanding a lot from me. For example, Z, and my Dad. Sigh, I'm already at my wits' end.

Save me... I'm drowning. I'm feeling so breathless, so hard to take in oxygen. Unhappyness that I bottled up, it's choking me. It's choking up till my throat now. Save me, anyone? I feel like breaking down. I know I'm not excellent either in studies or managing my own relationships...

I hope to close my eyes and never get to realise or feel anything anymore.
I don't want to let those tears fall.


Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. - Anonymous.

Labels: No longer myself.